Now I Know My ABCs....

Im not going to cry, Im not going to cry, Im not going to cry-  I cried!  Just a couple of tears, not "cry cry" but a few tears did pop up  in the corner of my eyes and did drip onto my cheek.  The hubs saying 'cut it out, I cant handle that or Ill lose it too"  as we were creeping away from the large building that held my baby, driving away from the Preschool looking back watching for C to run out after us.  Really I was thankful he didnt run out of the building into the road and not crying screaming!  But we have taught for 4 years to be friendly and polite and have manners but drilled in him and his brothers "stranger danger" and to not go with anyone, not open the door for anyone that he doesnt know and here we have just walked him into a strange place with strange faces and strange kids and left him.  That thought tore me up!!!!  I pray and try daily to to take all fears away and not put them in those scary situations but I failed today as mommy I felt like....

We talked preschool up since before schools were out for the summer. I did make the mistake once to say "Oh Im just going to cry Im going to miss you so bad, I dont want you to go"  and then he was like "hold up, if you are crying then why the crap are you taking me there"   So I learned quick to tell him how much he would love it, how much fun he would have, how his abbey grace went there when she was a little girl and she loved it, and mommy has friends that there little boys and girls have went or will go.  Its actually on our way to church so we pass it alot and he has been saying all summer "there is my school"

 We had just dropped D off for 4th grade.  He didnt need us opening the car door, or unbuckling him.   He didnt need us handing him his book bag or opening the school door. He didnt need us.  He is growing up so fast right before our eyes. So fast. He waved while walking into school and I could just see that in no time at all this would be C and even B not needing us  so it was just a hard morning!


But when I pulled back into preschool and opened the door and C man came running to me telling my ALL about his day and how much he loved it and when can he come back and that everything was his favorite part and he was so proud of himself and his drawings and his cubby and his folder and he had a worm on the green apple which green apple meant he had been good---  I knew he was no longer in a strange place!  He would continue to learn and play and grow- after all that is what I am supposed to help him do!


I still had an afternoon with him, little bubba was excited to see him but not sure he missed him like I had expected!  I think they both liked the one on one attention for once!!!!

Excited for this adventure!  Excited for his excitement to continue!  Grateful he is happy and healthy and has this chance to grow and learn and play, there is alot of children that cant or will never be healthy enough or have parents that love them enough.......